Five Years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Five years ago, on this very day I wrote my first post, the blogging world has advanced a lot over the years and my blog really does justice to its title "Soy un Perdedor" (I'm a loser), never felt like changing the typo and the song by Beck is still one of my favourites.....

Most people write more posts in a week than I have written in five years, most blogs have thousands of visitors, comments and followers, my blog doesn't, but I love it just as much :)

Bloggie, we've lasted five years, most things in life don't last that long, we will definitely last five more!!!!

My Photo Collection 2010-11

I've traveled a lot last year...had a great time in Delhi(except for the horrible weather) and now I will be heading to Mumbai for my MBA, this is a collection of my favourite pics.......

Langkawi, Malaysia

Malaysia

Cameron Highlands

Cameron Highlands

Langkawi, Malaysia

Penang

Langkawi, Malaysia

Langkawi, Malaysia

Penang

Madikeri, Karnataka

Delhi University

Christmas@DLF Vasant Kunj, Delhi

Taj Mahal

Deer Park, Hauz Khas, Delhi

Haridwar

Bathu Caves, Malaysia

IGI T1, Delhi

IGI T3, Delhi

Bangalore, GMR Office

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

Bathu Caves, Malaysia

Bangalore, Karnataka

Chennai Beach, Tamil Nadu

Vizag Beach, Andhra Pradesh

Madikeri, Karnataka

Kakinada Port, Andhra Pradesh

Rishikesh

Genting Highlands
Kakinada, Andhra Pradesh

Vizag, Andhra Pradesh

Ambience Mall , Delhi

India Gate, Delhi

You're A Star, In nobody's eyes but mine!!!

An incoherent post expressing the anguish of a 24 year old single guy....

My life has become extremely monotonous, I feel like I am doing the exact same thing everyday and I am contemplating shooting myself in the head just to differentiate this day from the day before it.One of my friends pointed out that I need to fall in love to make my life more interesting. Blessed with the looks of an ogre and the sense of humor of Adolf Hitler, I wonder if I will ever find my Fiona.I did a little bit of soul searching to understand my ineptitude with girls.

Falling in love is one of the most basic human needs, right after food,clothing and internet. I always wonder how people make the transition from "Strangers" to "Friends" to "Love you" to "I'm in love with you". I've been down that road once but it had more to do with cupid challenging himself than my natural charm and appeal. For some strange reason, I lose interest in people very quickly, whenever I find someone attractive, I do the whole Uday Chopra routine in Dhoom and that's pretty much it.

Some of my friends have managed to find the perfect girl (at least they claim to have done so) and others are harassing girls who have rejected them. Love is a drug, that blinds people, awkward conversations seem romantic and even the most mundane of traits of a loved one appear wonderful. Things are so much clear and simple in third person mode ( except in video games) I can come up with a hundred reasons for X dumping Y or X choosing Z over Y, but in Y's perspective he is the only person perfect for X and he is pretty sure that he can keep X happy for the rest of her life.

Indian cinema has always depicted love in an optimistic way, guy sees a girl, falls in love instantly, the girl resists initially and later reveals that her father is friends with Osama. In real life the girl would try to resist forever and later start an argument on how you don't take her seriously. There's nothing worse than Telugu cinema, Damn you Telugu cinema for showing that ugly guys have a chance with "intelligent, beautiful, innocent and wise" girls ( wonder if such a combination is possible)

On a serious note, I think love needs a little drama, two happy people rarely fall in love, one of them needs to be unhappy and one of them needs to rescue the other (Of course there will always be hare-brained people, who only exist to woo a specimen of the opposite sex). Love needs time, lots and lots of it, people don't become close to one another over night, it takes years to understand and ignore the flaws of the person you love. Maybe I've always believed in a fairytale version of love, in which the right girl walks into your life and everything falls in place . Life isn't a fairytale and I need to reach out a little bit more to have my own happy ending. Any girls interested????? ( A useless attempt considering the popularity of this blog)

Forward this post to atleast 10 girls in the age group 20 to 25. If you do so you will find the love of your life during the next lunar eclipse, else you will step on dog shit tomorrow.

Musings of a lunatic!!!

What time is it? Early in the morning, I try to gauge a parameter that has confined every man’s intellect and has eluded anyone who has ever tried to unravel its significance. In my case, time has long lost its absolute meaning; 8:15 am is just a little too early to wake up and anything after that is seriously late.

I look outside; I see a bunch of rag pickers beginning their day, unaware of all the comforts of life, what did they do to deserve this? I try to suppress the questions for one more day. One more day before it all explodes. Am I crazy? No, not when I can see things so clearly. Does that make me wise?? No, not when I am just a ‘weak excuse’ like everyone else.

Sometimes, I wonder, Who exactly am I? Why am I here? Why the hell do I own a cell phone worth seven thousand bucks when I can see people selling their souls for a thousand? Why can’t I make a tiny effort to bring a smile on someone’s face? Why doesn’t helping someone come naturally?

I try to argue that perfection was never a part of the design, if so, all of us would have looked the same and love would have been the only emotion that governed us. But can that be an excuse for not sharing what I have with someone else?

A wise man once told me “the ability to love and help” is what separates humans from animals. How many of us are humans then? Are we human cuz we have fallen away from the God above? If so what if we fall away from mankind now?

Dream Girl -- Kisi Shaayar Ki Ghazal

All characters appearing in this post are fictitious(or are they??).

Scene 1: Pingu and his Mom

Pingu: Mummy, Where is that new brown make up powder you brought?? my face is becoming pink again

Mom: Don't apply that powder ra that is for girls only, your pimples will increase if you apply such stuff on your face, the other kids are not healthy as you, thats why their faces are pale

Pingu:But Mummyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

Mom:I put your favourite Bambino Upma for lunch eat it properly, Shall I ask Daddy to drop you at school??

Pingu: Noooo.. I will go walking...Mummy Bye. .

Mom: I will come with you ra, its very hot and your bag is also very heavy, I will get the umbrella too

Pingu: Mummyyyyyyyyyy please, I will go alone, Bye Bye

Saying this Pingu marched towards his school. So what's the Fuss all about??

Well Pingu had fallen head over heals in love with one of the girls in his class and was making every effort to impress the girl. At his age love was yuck!! and if you go cuckoo over a girl, you would be mocked by just about everyone. Pingu used to plan in advance all the witty one liners and jokes he could use in front of this girl but he could neither make her laugh nor get her attention.

Scene 2: Pingu and Hari

Enter Hari, the chaddi buddy

Hari: Arey did you see the last episode of Raw, The Rock gave the Peoples Elbow, but still HHH waste fellow won the match.

Pingu: Yes ra, I wanted The Rock to win. Let us finalize that English assignment. Our group has done nothing yet, All others have done. I will ask Tanya and find out whether their group has done it.

Hari: Tanya lives near your house na, did you know she and Mohit attend the same tuition, they also study together all the time. That Mohit fellow is always with girls.

Pingu: Yes!!!! that fellow is a very bad fellow, I heard he smokes, I hate him!!

Hari: Ya even Tanya is....

Pingu: Shut up ra, Tanya is nice, Don't tell anything about her Ok, she really is nice.

Hari: How do you know ra?? Everyone thinks she is overacting all the time!!!

Pingu: Leave it ra...

Hari: Blushy Blushy, Your face became a tomato, everyone come, Pingu became red again....

Pingu: I will go you Asshhsoul, I will not let you join the spirit game !!!....

Pingu races away from the scene feeling confused, hurt and lost. Mohit was neither good at studies nor that good looking, he couldn't understand why Tanya was always with him.

Scene 3: Pingu and Shyam ( With a Spirit apparatus, waiting to contact ghosts in the night)

Enter Shyam a.k.a Love Baba, a senior of Pingu..

Pingu: Do you think ghosts will come

Shyam: Yes ra, I told you na my Uncle once saw one and spoke to them.

Pingu: What to do if they talk?? will they grant our wishes??

Shyam: Arey what wishes do you have ra.

Pingu: I won't tell you but can you help me with something??

Shyam: Yes, tell ra..

Pingu: It's nothing actually, one of my friend likes a girl and he doesn't know if she likes him or not, how will he know?

Shyam: I am good at such things, I will tell you the secret, If a girl likes you she will laugh even if you say something thats not funny.

Pingu: What if she doesn't laugh even when you say something funny!!!

Shyam: Then she doesn't like you, everyone knows that, now stop wasting time and put the finger on the coin.

Pingu wanted to say something funny and make Tanya laugh, he felt that no one would laugh at a bad joke anyways. So he sat all night and thought of something hilarious to say.

Scene 3: Pingu, Hari and Tanya ( At 11:50 am in the lunch corridor of the first floor of school)

Enter Tanya,the heroine (Opening her steel tiffin box with a disappointed look on her face, From her expression Pingu knew that It had to be upma that day)

Pingu: Arey Hari, do you know what the movie Gadar should be called??

Hari: What??

Pingu: Beauty and the beast. Sunny Deol looks like a Chimpanzee and Amisha Patel is very Beautiful.

Tanya: That is really funny, even I thought that way only.Did you see the movie Pingu??

Pingu: Ermmmmmmmm, Ermmmmmmmm Yes!!!

Tanya: The story was cool na, full fights and all...

Pingu: Ermmmmmmm, I didn't watch the movie ....

Tanya: You just said......

Pingu: Ya, Ok, ya, ya, I will be watching it soon. It is playing in Ramachandra na, I asked my Dad to get the tickets..

Tanya: No

Hari: Its playing in Sangeeth I saw the movie with my parents.It was so cool.

Tanya: Yes I liked the story a lot..

Hari: Blah Blah Blah....

Tanya: Blah Blah Blah......

Hari: Blah Blah Blah....

Tanya: Blah Blah Blah......

Hari: Blah Blah Blah....

Tanya: Blah Blah Blah......

Pingu silently packed his lunch-box and left. He wasn't sure if she liked him, she did smile but later on he made a complete fool of himself. What was so special about this girl?? She wasn't all that good looking, Sharon, Akhila and Swathi all looked better than her. Maybe it was her dimples, maybe it was her eyes or maybe it was the way she brushed the hair off her face. She stayed so close to his house but much closer to his heart, guess she will never know. So the little romeo decided to forget his heart-break and waited for things to get better. Unfortunately they never did.

Scene 4: Kodak Camera.

Pingu: Mummyyyy I want a Kodak camera...I want to take photos of all my friends!!!

Mom: No ra, it is very costly, 1400 rupees, that much for only one day is high na..

Pingu: Mummy Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! Mummy Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!..

Mom: Ok ok, we will go to Anutex and get the camera.

Pingu: Thanks mummy, the first photo I will take will be of you..

Pingu got his scrapbook filled by all his friends but by the time it reached Tanya, a ban was placed on scrapbooks in the classroom.She never filled it but he did get to take a photo of her on the Farewell Day. He was very happy with that

Scene 5: Nine Years Later

Pingu, is all grown up, working in an Infrastructure company. On his visit to hyderabad, he comes across Tanya. She vanished before he could say hello

TO BE CONTINUED.....

A Fight To Imperfection

Pingu hated waking up early, especially on a Sunday. To wake up was one thing, but to go out and play cricket was even worse. His best friend Sai was already waiting downstairs with his BDM bat. 

(Sai and Pingu were best friends since they were six. Everyone envied the duo's coolest collection of WWF cards, radiums and double decker magnet pencil boxes. They went to school together, played cricket together and spent most of their time hopelessly playing the spirit game. When at school they sneaked out of PT class, played pen-dash during the science classes and slept through the math classes.)

Pingu came down and lazily started walking with his friend. "Today i will score a century" Sai said. Pingu ignored his drivel, he knew they were definitely going to lose the match as the opponents had a bowler who could bowl off spinners, on spinners, out spinners, in spinners and what not. Eventually they did lose the game.

After the match the captain of the rival team mocked Sai, so he punched him. The skirmish grew into a big fight, and everyone started hitting Sai. Pingu tried to fight but he realized he wasn't strong so he ran to call someone. A few adults stopped the fight and Pingu felt he did the right thing by getting the adults involved.

Next day Sai accused Pingu of being a coward and the entire class labeled him a darpok. Most things went back to normal in a few days except for the best friends part. The next time they played cricket Sai had to chose his side, one after one he selected his players. Pingu was usually the first person to enter Sai's team but this time he was left out. Pingu didn't want to play in the other team so he went back home and cried. He cried because he felt weak,he cried because he couldn't discriminate right from wrong . How could he feel guilty even after doing what he felt was right?. Did his friends really mean the world to him? Was he really a coward? Would he always run away?. He realized that it would have hurt him a lot lesser if he would have taken a blow instead of running away and that sometimes doing the right thing may hurt a loved one.

Twelve years later Pingu still struggles to say the right words but he knows that relationships are inherently weak and a moment of indecision can scar a person for a lifetime. Some of us are cursed to hide our feelings, Some of us make stupid mistakes, Some of us are scared of getting hurt and Some of us just don't know how to make a loved one smile, but if all of us are perfect would love still be so amazing.

CLOSER

I've had enough of this parade.
I'm thinking of the words to say.
When I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you...
-------- Travis - Closer.

I've always struggled to say the right words to people around me. This post is a tiny attempt to thank all the people who have made my life so amazing.

GOD : I thank you for blessing me with the most amazing parents and friends.

PARENTS : I live for you, and I'd trade my entire life for a moment with you cuz you are the best parents in the whole universe and I know you love me more than anyone ever can......saying anything else would just be an understatement.

COUSINS : I hate you for all the girly things you make me do, but thats insignificant compared to how much I love you. You've always been there for me, laughed at my silly jokes, listened to my stupid stories, been a part of my crazy pranks, held me together when things didn't go my way. I know we haven't spent as much time together as we wish but I promise that from now on I will try harder. Love you loads.

FRIENDS :

Mouli : My mentor/idol, you have helped me through so many tough times, Ive lost count of it, I can never thank you enough. I hope I can be half as good a person as you. The dialogue "No matter what happens in life we three will always stick out for each other" the most filmy ever.

Shrew a.k.a Sravan : The only person who has more problems than me at any given instant, I've learned so much from you. One guy who hopelessly tries to seem bad but fails miserably. Thanks for always cheering me up.

Rambo a.k.a Ramesh : Hyderabad without you would never be the same, if it weren't for you I would have probably turned into nerdracula a lot sooner. Coolio :)

Sai + Srikanth + Tkt + Kuppu + Manda + Ravi + Praveen + Po + Pinky + Nikhil + Dukaye + Chintu + Sneha + Ajay +.................. : The most amazing childhood friends ever, can't forget all the goofy times and the cricket matches.

Mukala : Rash on the outside but one of the nicest persons I've come across, Thanks for always being there for me even though I couldn't do the same for you. You've caused me more monetary losses than anyone else. Wonder why the market crashes every time you invest.

Dms + Bully + Babai + Gangee : The first group at NITW that I could be a part of, the sportstars of NITW( even though most would disagree I still believe we play the best football ever). I can never forget the countless trips to dhaba and the unlimited entertainment.

Aditya : One of the few people in NITW who is as lazy as me and thinks along the same lines as me.Thanks for always listening to my elimination plans and reading my posts.

Amruth : The Roger Fooderer of NITW, we have played the most ridiculous tennis of all time, if I ever turn pro its because of your stupid serve.

Deepa a.k.a Delileo : A girl who dreams more than the whole world put together. Its funny how we can keep chatting for hours together until both of us end up with sore throats and how everyone ignores us once we start talking to each other. The best thing that happened after college and one of my bestest friends ever.

Jessie Akka : Thanks akka for always listening to my nonsense. Can never forget the Murgh Malai Kabab that brought us to tears, never..he he..

A special thanks to all the people who have made this blog and hence this post possible... Azeera ( I've started blogging after reading your amazing posts ), Dms ( Thanks a lot for always trying to improve my blog with your google wisdom, we shall rule the internet some day ;)the billions of people worldwide who eagerly wait for my posts.........